There was an overcast to the day making her feel like a dark doorway
was trying to open up inside her..
So she let it..
And to her surprise, only light poured out.
She was loving the rain clouds that had rolled in so quickly
making everything silent with darkness.
One of her favorite things to do on this planet
was indeed to watch the seasons and weather do what they knew best!
As she sat on the porch with a smile across her face,
a pigeon cooed to her from nearby, but she couldn't
spot where he was perched.
Then she heard him again, "coo coo"...
She knew he was sending her a message.
She felt the warm welcome he sent and the hopeful initiation into
her new beginning.
She was happy. Finally.
But she knew she wasn't done.
Not even close.
It was now prime time to really crank it up.
She was coming upon so many new things in her awakening,
that it was almost all too overwhelming.
But this was exactly what she always had, just never knew what to do with it.
Until now.
She began to realize that one of the main keys to being awoke
was knowing what was hers and what wasn't.
But also, part of the knowing was all about feeling them.
And that is the very thing she knew she really needed to work on.
Feelings...
Emotions...
and the lack there of.
Especially in her life.
She realized that she had completely vacated hers
when she was a very young child.
Something traumatic must have happened way back when..
When the moon was full...
Awwooo!
But yes.. She was beginning to learn that, with parents that had also vacated emotions and feelings in their time,
her education really could only consist of rather highly evolved escape mechanisms and concrete distraction techniques.
So first things first.
She had to retrain her mind, or in other words, change her perspective.
She began to teach herself slowly that feelings were okay.
All of them. Even the negative ones.
She also taught herself that with each feeling there was a certain sensation that
she would either like or not like.
And that all depended on what they were rooted in.
And this is where the true fun began.
In her new awakened state, she realized that the fun was always in the curiosity
of the unknown.
Like a child that enjoyed touching things for the first time.
Experiencing things for the first time.
That same excitement came with the not knowing what emotions
would get triggered, or where each feeling would be rooted.
But the only way to play this new game was to be completely
honest.
Honest with herself.
Honest with her true feelings in her and around her.
and then to communicate everything from the heart to others.
Without fear of losing, or being hurt, or being wrong.
Accepting herself and the feelings as they came up was part of the rising.
Part of the transformation
so that one day she could fly!
