"Stay inside the lines", said the teacher.
As if there was actually a correct way to color and be artistic.
This was one of the first rules that ever struck her with a negative feeling.
Being so young it was hard for her to make sense of feelings and separate them from emotions.
What really were they?
Especially since she couldn't really see them with her own human eyes..
But she always knew she felt something.
Somehow though,
Life never gave her the chance to understand what she was feeling,
or dealing with, since there was always something else more important to focus on.
Teachers had demands and expectations.
Then when she got home, the parentals had their own agendas to deal with.
Everyone was always too busy to ever really sit down with her and empathize...
So life continued forth for her,
unexplained.
Clumping together more and more..
Until she developed health issues such as anxiety and depression.
Which also lead her to an Ego being born in order to shut out
all that she never understood, yet feared cuz it was all unknown.
Until one day..
Years and years later.
Fall after fall.
Destruction after destruction...
Repeating a karmic loop for so long that life had completely lost it's luster to her...
Yet, hitting that dead end was inevitable...
And honestly, she wasn't satisfied with death, especially since she still had a ton of unanswered questions.
And so she began a new journey.
To actually color outside the lines!
To find answers, even in the scariest of places...
In her own shadows.
It was time to go back home to the inner child locked within and reconnect.
To find out what she never got the chance to because everyone was too busy.
But now, she had the tools to face this unknown head on.
And the first step for her was to accept all that she knew she felt.
Even those that she wasn't too comfortable facing.
Opening up was scary...
But it was now or never.
And never was already asking her to come, but she said no.
NOW is all she had and Now was the perfect time to begin to unpack all that she held within her to see where it would take her next...
